Monday, May 2, 2011

今天的心情

刚刚花了大概两个小时重新读回自己的部落格。
发现自己真的改变了很多。
我不懂该说好还是坏。
我固然是变得更懒惰了,但同时我好像蛮享受的。
废话,谁会不享受懒慵慵的生活啊?
以前再怎么懒惰还是会逼自己早起,但现在好像都无所谓了。
我到底要颓废到几时啊?
花了两个小时读完自己的部落格后,发现自己让读者失望了。
我竟然懒到不更新部落格,即使更新了也好像没更新一样。
我忘了说我终于看了 "My name is Khan"。
不得不说那真的是一部很好看的电影,非常有意义。
接下来我想看 "Devil wears Prada"。
你应该会问,“怎么这么好看的电影你还没看啊?”
其实我也不懂为什么。
如果这次假期没工作,我应该还会窝在家里看 “一公升的眼泪”。
其实我真的好想念补习班里的小孩,好希望他们都进步了,懂事了。
毕竟我看着他们长大,放了很多的爱和心思,
就好像自己栽了棵幼苗,想看看长得怎么样了。
每当要回来读书时,他们都会问 “老师,你什么时候再回来啊?”
我好想说,我不想离开。
当然我非常希望可以回去看看他们,栽培他们,但最后还是得看老板需不需要我啊。
好多时候我都会被他们气得很没心情,但我会突然明白到原来我曾经比他们更坏,更叛逆。
老师们,妈妈,谢谢你们没有因此放弃我。
今天满是期待的想吃我最爱的鸡饭,但是老板却打电话来说鸡饭买完了,
而且晚上也没得吃了,因为今天咖啡店开半天而已。
顿时没了心情。
我可以为了小事而开心,却也因为这样心情很容易就被影响。
接下来还有考试,但我完全还没准备。
为人师表,为人儿女,我真的感到很惭愧。

心灵上的出轨

我不懂这是不是一个敏感的话题,但今天就是有心情把它写出来。
顾名思义,心灵上的出轨代表你已经有了另一半,但心里却出现了一个第三者。
而这所谓的第三者,不一定知情。
看清楚,是心灵上,而不是行动上。
也就是说,你想过或你想着但你没做出来。
当然,这不是最正确的定义,但应该不会差很远吧。
那是一种怎样的感觉呢?
就好像有点暗恋?单恋?但绝对不是明恋。
因为明恋是表现出来了,也就不再只是心灵上的出轨了。
你会在意他或她对你说的一切,时不时拿起电话查看有没有新信息,又或则当你看到他或他上线时,心里有一股你说不出的喜悦。你会压抑着自己,别先开口和他或她说话。
那这种情况是该被唾弃的吗?
感觉上没那么严重。
不就是想而已,又不是采取行动了。
想一想应该没错啊。
对吧?
个人认为两个词可以形容“心灵上的出轨”。
那就是“尴尬” 和“矛盾”。
尴尬是因为见到了,但不能说出口,也不能表现得太明显。
矛盾也是一定的。
因为你不懂该继续,还是放弃这种连你自己都搞不清楚的状况。
每个人在作出选择时,都会感到很矛盾。
该顾虑的也很多。
这种情况不一定会长久。
或许你有一段很稳定的感情,舍不得就这样放手,
但就因为稳定的感情里少了点火花,心灵上才出轨了。
有时考虑清楚后,或许会发现,现在这种状况也很好。
心里的那份感觉一旦过了,身边还有个你该珍惜的人。
这种想法毕竟是自私了点,但再怎么说,你并没有做出什么对不起他或她的事。
这也是避免造成伤害的方法不是吗?
所以,心灵上出轨胜过行动上出轨。
一旦采取行动,一切都不能挽回了。
在此奉劝大家,想一想就好 :)
但当然能免还是连心灵上的也免了。

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

6/4/2011

I'm listening to "Coming home" and "S&M" while worrying for decorations for 60's >.<
What else in my mind?
Of course my blog!!!
3 minutes thing is like a trend in my life.
I updated my blog at least every week in the beginning after I created this blog and now I leave it here growing mushroom >.<
Sorry,dear blog.

Am I really this busy until I got no time to update my blog?
I don't think so.
I just rather spend my time on watching movies,sleeping and loitering around with friends.
Done with midterms,presentations and assignments,life is like so meaningless >.<
Normally students blame due to tons of assignments and stuff but I'm done with all these!!
Ish!!
What I'm busy with recently?
Events will be the answer.
60's night and Japanese culture night.
Hope I can handle them well :)
No point to just study and learn from books or slides,we should enjoy our life in University as well. Am I right?

That's all for today.
Stay tune for further updates :)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

快乐

人们长大后总觉得自己越来越不快乐。
有多不快乐?
小时候想快点长大,长大后却反而想回到小时候。
其实快乐可以很简单。
又有多简单呢?
想一想,你还活着。
想一想,你还看见今天的阳光。
想一想,你今天吃得饱,穿得暖,睡得着。
那还不快乐?

长大后,我们追求的越来越多,也越来越复杂,
所以快乐离我们越来越远。
工作不愉快,读书压力大时我们总说:还是小时候好。
直到一个小孩告诉我:你们大人真好,想几时吃麦当劳就吃麦当劳。
原来我们只知道小时候是开心的,而为什么开心却不再记得了。
倘若我们和还是为了同一个原因而开心,那不是很好吗?
原来小孩子的要求很简单,为什么我们不能呢?
当你的要求变简单,你就会更快乐。

Friday, December 31, 2010

:)

I'm here again :)
It's new year eve and it's my baby's birthday >.<
Happy birthday,baby.

Recently not in good mood and I don't really know the reason :(
Due to my eyes? Aunty visit soon? That so called event job?
I don't know.
Bumped into my darling in QB yesterday,both of us were in glasses. Hehe...
Hope can meet them on this coming Wednesday again :)

Hmm....i'm growing mushrooms at home.
Need some plans >.<
This Saturday morning will have breakfast with Shona and night time with Boon and gang in Sunset bistro.
Kai Yong suggested to have wine on that night but I know it's not going to happen due to her gastric and Boon will be driving that night :(
Next Monday night with my beloved lao eh a.k.a Hoey. Church street for snow beer? Or hoegarden? Hmm...let her decide then.
Next Wednesday with my darling and Neh. Time and Venue unknown yet.
Will have a day out with Adelyn but date,time and venue also unknown yet.
That are my plans for next week :)

Hope I can enjoy my semester break since it's only a month.
Gosh! I miss Kampar :(
I miss my beloved housemates :(
I miss my coursemates :(
I miss my seniors :(
I miss my year one life :(

Friday, November 26, 2010

My short semester

It has been four months I abandoned my blog to the point where I can't remember my address and password.

I thought short semester will not be hectic and I can relax and pass my short semester. Apparently,I was wrong!
Short semester means shorter time for me to study and rest.
Assignments,mid-terms,presentations,meetings,rehearsals...
Uncountable rehearsals and meetings for Moral.

First time join a class with majority year 3 semester 3 seniors and only few of us are still year one. Of course we will choose somebody from Y3S3 to be president to lead us so that we can learn from them.
*sigh*
All I can say is we did a wrong decision.
She is not a good leader or even a good senior.
A leader without leadership + ego + never listen to others' opinions = our frustration
We had rehearsals for Moral within our own group almost 3 times per week.
Sleepless nights for 3 weeks.
We did our video,rehearsals,pratices,discussions,arguements with the so called leader.
Everyone was so nervous on the campaign day itself.
We tried and did our very best and luckily lecturer satisfied with our outcome.
"Saya amat puas hati dengan kempen hari ini dan saya bagi markah penuh!"
Everyone was screaming like mad because all of us were just too happy.
So my conclusion for this campaign is : Useless leader + co-operation from everyone = happy ending. *Woohooo!!*

I am seriously happy and glad to know a gang of seniors and we shared our happy time together.
So envy because they are graduating very soon.
Everyone of them struggled for three years and just waiting for this moment.
Hope they can have bright future :)

I seriously need to study hard to my Consumer Behaviour so that I can pull up my CGPA and make sure I can pass my Japanese and Moral.
*God bless*
P/s: Still don't understand those Japanese grammar and particles.

Two weekends in Kampar again.
Miss my mummy a lot :(
Hope I can enjoy my semester break soon! :)

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Girls' day out!

Went to Ipoh yesterday.
Had fun with a bunch of female coursemates.
I spent around RM150 and i'm broke now.

Went to "wong kok" and had lunch.
Worst service I would say.
-went to counter and took menu ourselves
-wrong information
-wrong drinks
-wrong food
-slow service
=no more next visit!
We were so pissed and complaining while eating.

Went to a wholesale shop.
Girls' heaven.
Mask,hair treatment..
Woohooo!!
Feel good when I spend money.
>.<

Went to tesco extra and shopped again.
LOL!

Came home at around 9pm.
Tracy picked me up to her house and started to prepare slides for our Law presentation.
Another frust day.
But I can still bear with that.
Hmmm....
I'm learning to control my EQ.
And I think I did well last night.

Eeu wants to have an account and start to "blog".
I think he wanted to express his anger and all the vulgar words in his blog.
LOL!
Eeu,i'm looking forward to read your blog!
Good luck!